Pirates Valley

2006-11-27T07:29:00.000-08:00

Read some other ppl's blogs today.... what drives us to work so hard and why? Looking around I see everyone so stressed working like mad.... I'm slowly turning into a workaholic too... if I dun study for a day, I'll feel odd.... I'm here because I have a goal, yet it seem that the harder I work on my schookwork I drift further away from my goal. AARGH!!! I'm doing stuff like geog, chem, phy, math but I want to study programming!!! Ok fine... I'll find my way.... Before, I used to be a computer geek, spending 70 to 80 percent of my time studying com stuff... but what changed me? I look around and I see ppl so driven to get good grades.... and I see ppl working so hard.... aah must be that Mr S, he appears to work so hard, or maybe he dosen't but it convices me and that's enough, but if he's juz pretending to, gd for u dude, it works. Everytime he nags, I hand up my lab report with all the questions completed, however usually one day late. But at least I do my paper properly..... And now, I can't believe I'm working my *** off when there's no test, no exams, no homework! It's the hols now! Hello? AARGH!!! Then I see people aiming to go to Stanford or whatever, winning the Nobel prize? XD And me? To win DEFCON the largest 'underground' hacking compeition? Haha... Now you see the difference.... Anyway, I gotta get back to work, I think I'll work for 70% of the time and spend the rest either learning and practising programming or playing my miserable keyboard which is aeons older then me.... I want the adapter BACK! I want to play the NEWER keyboard not this tiny old keyboard get it? I can play properly on this keyboard and with it's limited functions it sounds funny when I play it, so PLEASE it's been weeks ald.....

2006-11-25T20:21:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I'm saying this well, but I am..... I actually thought that Rain was cute...XD But Channing Tatum is cuter...XD Well... I used to find Rain's MVs irritating, but after looking properly, he CAN dance... ok fine... but still most of them are irritating when he is trying to work his sex appeal.... but the one, I DO is much better and more pleasant too but somehow, from the side he reminds me of my tutor.....XD but his songs are still ok to listen to while I'm working...

Step Up rocks!!! Channing Tatum is so funny.... and he can dance very well... the acting is great, plus Mario's in the cast and he actually performs in the movie... so there...go watch it, you won't regret...

Prisonbreak is nice too... but the DVD set cost a bomb... abt 100 bucks.... but Wentworth Miller's character is really cool... and smart... so jealous.... my friend watched the whole thing on DVD ald... but I can't borrow cuz it's with his dad who's overseas... AARGH!!!

2006-11-22T07:07:00.000-08:00

AAhhhh!!! My CAP sux... so ridiculous.... improved by a mere 0.01 pts... I felt like banging my head.... not juz my CAP is tt bad... but it is juz too ridiculous but anyways... i also want a higher CAP, juz like anyone else.... XD.... X, when he saw my CAP was like: WHAT?! He staed at it in disbelief.... I know... it sux... But after he had recovered frm his initial shock.... he was back to his normal self... tried to make me feel better by asking me to look at the score objectively..... yea, marks are not everything and my CAP is ok considering the circumstances.... but looking back, at one point, i was on the brink of failing until 'someone' saved me.... XD I told X tt i wanted to work harder.... he was a bit surprised, considering my character.... LAZY... but I really regret wad happened... working like mad until I fell ill juz to pass my exams... I also want to make his effort, and everybody's effort worth it... I dun want to dissapoint them... and put unnecessary pressure on myself and X... since he's been so patient and made me realise my mistake and never giving up although it looked impossible....THX ;)

2006-11-11T20:14:00.000-08:00

Haha....exams r over and I'm like trying to do so many things at the same time. Learning to play How To Save A Life by The Fray on the keyboard, and brushing up on my computer skills and playing stupid.....not enough time. XD Refreshing myself on html and doing javascript, it's the first time I'm mixing these 2 together. So the first thing to do? Get a complex blogskin with javascript, and take it on - which means tearing it down and rebuilding it to my own set specifications. Sadly, it includes graphical and asthetical elements, which is a bit troublesome but it's all part of learning. The last time i did that was before exams when my teacher was moaning over how difficult it was to edit her blogskin and just to prove her wrong, I decided to try and do it to her specs and it was done in under half an hr, easy but now with javascript and navigations I'm gonna take much longer but I'll try. Then after that when I think I'm good enough, build up my own blogskin from scratch, and to add to the difficulty, make it as complex as possible.

I also wanted to try composing songs....but my main inspirations are backstreet boys and Jonathan Clay, and Jonathan Clay's music is heavily inspired buy John Mayer, so how will it turn out? I wonder, but the music part I'm still trying to figure out so it'll take some time. Plus I don't have a guitar to work with and the large keyboard is down cuz someone took away the adapter and didn't return it as of yet. So I'm left with my battery operated 4th hand keyboard that is molder than myself to practice and compose songs on, not a very nice thing cuz it actually ok but it dosen't have keys that are sensitive to how hard you hit em so it will sound a bit weird when played. Sigh... so I'll work on the lyrics first and alter them along the way.

2006-11-09T00:14:00.000-08:00

Been thinking of a certain person these few days.... Somehow, when you don't see someone as
often, that someone keeps popping up in your head be it when your catching a nap, playing the
keyboard, crapping... anytime... I'm also starting to miss some of my lessons that I don't really
enjoy.... sigh..... what to do? Maybe I'll write something on my other blogs juz to get this feeling off.
I miss a lot of stuff and most of all, I miss you..... sigh......

2006-11-09T00:04:00.000-08:00

Haven't blogged for a long time..... been too busy studying then after that too busy playing and
pusuing my other interests. I have been thinking about something for a rather long time... and
more recently I saw a blog post about it written by someone I know... it was about Jesus' suffering as
as depicted in the bible and the movie The Passion of Christ.... I was thinking how did these all
come about.... ancient writings of religion dates back to a time in which modern man hardly know
about. How did these writings came to be beliefs of today? Yes.... I do believe that there are other beings, possibly superior to man around.... we can't be the only ones around right? But then again,
why is it that so little is know and proof is so difficult? The unknown is so vast and what we know
is just a very small portion of it..... like what's death, yea, clinically dead as some people would say,
but what does it mean? What is it for? Questions left unanswered everyday as more and more
questions arise.....

2006-10-30T16:19:00.000-08:00

Oh screw that shit.... u say u r stressed..... aren't I too? U screwed me up so badly. Anayway, serves u rite tt u r stressed..... at least u get ur fair share of it..... haha I'm so mean but tt's true rite? Meanwhile, while u r crying at the workplace, I'm not much better at home. Crying not cuz I'm upset but cuz my head hurt so darn bad that I can't walk, or do nothing..... luckily someone helped me to the bed. But I had to wait till it was all clear before I could safely drift off to sleep. Lying there semi-conscious and disoriented, I still had to try to stay awake. At one point I even forgot where I was.... I was like oh where the hell am I? Then I realised that i was in the room..... stupid rite? Then koncked out as soon it was clear. Woke up and guess what? Shit, i can't open my right eye.....look around the room with only one eye open.....then tried to move my right hand.... cannot move as well...... my right leg was a bit stiff but i could still move it with some effort. Screwed shit, y is it that my left side is totally ok but my right isn't? Nvm.... then the headache cam back.....yea...all this was caused by a stress headache. It was like splitting my skull down the middle. I knocked out again....woke up much better.....now my right arm can move.....used my hand to force my eye open...then it snapped shut...darn....forced it open again...ok...it stayed there half open....at least i can see now.... let's try getting up to watch tv....pushed myself up.....my head started throbbing.....sat there and rested while watching tv..... when i felt better...i tried to get to the kitchen....and cut strawberries.....hehe....luckily i didn't cut my own hand.....after eating i felt a lot better.....then my cousin offered me lots of nice chocolates!!!! Ate chocolates and watched prison break... it rocks.... a lot better for someone who couldn't move or do anything a few hrs ago..... waited till the headache had totally faded.... which was at night before i started work till midnight....

I know i do owe u an explanation for wad happened...if u want it.... i too want your explanation...but not now..... i don't want it to affect my work..... anyway, i'd better save my own ass first since u did the same to me.......

2006-10-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

Haven;t blogged for a few days, too busy with school and a lot of other crappy stuff... Ok so recap of today and yesterday first....

Yesterday: Had to wear formal but I lost my tie... Mr Ho didn't say anything... Ms Chen said to find my tie ASAP or she would have to punish me..... I was like "No problem" She just stared at me. After all, it's my own horrible fault that I lost my tie right? And besides I'm gonna get punished sooner or later anyway, and the punishment isn't tt bad either, just wear tie the next day only wad..... In my head I was thinking like "Go ahead and punish me....I won't get angry with you!" But she didn't. First time in my life have I seen such things happen. But as expected, Mr Skd ordered me to wear my tie the following day....knew it....the punishment was bound to come sooner or later.....Then IS test.... Practical test... quite fun.... but I can't stand that Mr Skd... he's like so friggin smart.... juz read on my classmate's blog that all he did was loop the leaf in the hole of the weight and lifted up the 1kg weight just using 1 leaf!!! OMG! That's pro. No wonder he say no need string, but then liddat how to have results? The heaviest weight is 1 kg.... dun tell me tie a few 1kg weights together? Hahaz... Then he found out that one of my classmates was frm Ros*** School, the same pri sch that I was frm. He then repeated the name of the school thoughout the rest of the lesson, each time I walked past him, I was bound to hear it. Then he said Ros*** Primary School..... I was like, there's no Primary in the name. He was like "Ok" and continued repeating the name without the Primary in it. Odd guy. And the iron of the whole thing was that at the end of the lesson, there were 3 students left on the lab and all of us were from the same school..... strange..... It's starting to get a little bit creepy....Then I was feeling a bit bored so I decided to stay in the lab to chat.... Found out something suprising..... someone's last job at a certain institute is still vacant after 2 yrs...... hmm.... so long?

Today: Horrible, rushed roun trying to get a tie, thank god one of my friends had a tie with her, or i'll be dead... Had to wear tie till 1pm..... Ms Chen saw me and was like "Oh....being punished? Who asked u to wear tie today?" I was like dotts.... who else "Mr Skd" I replied. "Good" she said. What on earth is so good abt it? I know it's my fault, bu good simply sound weird....very weird.... And life is such that you ca bump into the same person so many times.... Then break, I saw her today.... she's so strange today, she didn't scold me for not pulling my tie all the way up to the collar, but my classmate got scolded for not wearing his badge and had to buy another one!!! Hahaz....I'm so mean....Then we talked abt the mosquito ring.... apparently, adults can't really hear it... but I can.... weird..... My teache rcould hear it slightly, but at a distance she can't but I can, and it's so ear piercing. She claims tt Mr Skd can't hear it too, he's a few months younger than her, and besides men usually age slower, so what's the reason for him not being able to hear it? Weird... must do more research on this.........

2006-10-11T23:00:00.000-07:00

Today was a rather weird day.... First, I met my teacher first thing in the morning, just as I was about to pass up work early for once. Then assembly, the same teacher tried acting cute...*erm* no comments...but it was kinda funny. When I was on my way home, I saw 5 teachers - 4 teachers from my school and on teacher who used to teach in my school, but now teaches at the school across the road. XD. I was kinda bored, so I decided to try to figure out who the 5 teachers were...cuz they were quite far away. So first I was my English teacher....then I saw my Chem teacher....and another teacher beside her...looks like Mr Wee I think.....XD. Then I saw my physics teacher. 4 teachers ald...so I was wondering who was the last one....I didn't realise who it was until I saw how he walked.......So it's my IS teacher. thre were exactly 5 of them...most probbably they're gonna get into a car....yea ad ture enough they did. What surprised me most was the driver...Ms Sim....XD....didn't noe she had a car (and a nice one at that). Lolz......Enough of all this stuff abt teachers....anyway...I juz wanted to crap...XD

2006-10-09T22:02:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah! Made someone's blog hit go up to 200!! Wootz! Hahaz....ok tt's lame. Free period now...I'm so bored...feel like playing some pranks again....but always no kick....must think of something better. I seriously nedd regular comic relief, or I'll be agitated, especially after yesterday. I know it's a bit mean to play pranks...make ppl happy fo nothing then tell them what it really is...hahaz...but it's kinda fun....and I'm sure it pretty harmless rite? I'm not doin anything nasty...

And I've noticed that I'm not the only one in a bad mood...Yeah! I like tt....sigh....I'm so saddistic...lolz.

Shayne Ward ROCKS!!! He's a great singer...very versatile.....and I like the way he says the words of the songs...lolz....The X factor is a really nice show...but it's not shown in this country...sigh...but there's always Youtube! The concept is better than Idol, as in each contestant will be assigned to one of the judges and the judge will be their mentor...in this way, the contestants will be properly nurtured.....which is much better than Idol....Idol sux. And the judges on X factor are fun, and Simon Cowell dosen't seems so mean.....And the comments are funny! Lolx.....

2006-10-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

Today was really KNS! First got nagged to pull up my tie for the upteenth time...it's strangling ok? But tt isn't tt bad. Then the "eggy IS lesson". Mr "S" nagged half the lesson time. Just sitting there talking non-stop. Yea...it makes sense....I know we're a bunch of overpriveledged kiddos...but u juz need to give some time...kids will grow up someday. Take a good look at them...they're not tt bad. Be a lil' more patient. Ok? Lolz....

Then the afternoon was even worse.....had to go to the Horrible Stinking Association....and tt isiot sucks. The needle gun was stupid......

Sigh...I'm so agitated....but I feel a lot better after pranking someone. Screwed up the blog counter.......haha......but then tt person logged off so soon...no kick! Have to wait till 2morrow!

2006-10-07T23:35:00.000-07:00

Oh Yeah! Managed to rip videos from Youtube. So far ripped 2 vids of Shayne Ward performing on the show, X Factor. Ok, here's the steps for you to be able to do it, it's a little bit of a hassle, but it's definitely worth it.

1. Get the latest version of Mozilla Firefox.

2. Go to the Firefox extentions page and search for an extention called "download helper", click on it and install it.

3. Once you have installed download helper, go to www.softpedia.com and search for FLV player. Install FLV player from the US link.

4. Once that is done, go to www.youtube.com and pick a video of your choice. Right click on a blank area in the page (ie. no vids, no links etc).

5. When you right click, you will see a dropdown list and go to the option that says "download helper".

6. Click on the one that says "youtube....." There will also be a youtube icon.

7. Save the vid.

8. One that is done, go to "C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\dwhelper\youtube" to access the videos.

9. Done!!!! Just sit back, relax and enjoy the videos!

Without wax,
Ilex.j

2006-10-07T03:07:00.000-07:00

Today, I was looking through my com for junk to clear when I stumbled upon some pictures. Looking at them....many was a total disaster....the way the picts was taken was terrible. Luckily, none of then were taken by me...: ) Hahaz...sorry to the person who took these picts...but they really don't look nice. For example, a guy's hand in one of the picts looked larger than his head...and in another, a gal's face looked off color....and the angle was weird. Ok anyway....but frankly, those people in the pictures look A LOT BETTER in person...lolz. Hahaz...lesson learnt....I must improve on my photography skills.....after all....I'm in the photography club....so I can't take horrible picts....or else I would be dead. Lolz.....

2006-10-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

Sighz....read Roy's poem on his blog, it's a really nice poem....but I don't think I'll ever wanna read such poems ever again. There's always a trigger every few days that get me really upset.....why?

Anyway, today was the last day of IP...YAY! I hate IP...did it beofre ald...actually I wanted to go for something more adventurous like amking a cooling system or some interesting hardware hacks.....go to www.hackaday.com ...those stuff are really cool. But my group members opted for something simple, which bored me to death. The prototype is like so easy to make...can make it in under a day. the IP fair was moderately fun...most of the time was spent klkk or reading some intro notes on cryptography and cryptanlysis....did I spell it right? Well, it's something like that....the latter interests me more....some how stuff and hacking seems to interest me more than programming or working out algorithms....anyway, my math sucks so algorithms at this point is definitely out of question. Sigh....realised how sucky my English was when I read the notes.....I dun understand the vocab used! OMG! Need to do more research...cuz if u wanna break any code, u must first know how it was designed wad....the best person to stop a hacker is in fact another hacker...cuz they think along the same lines... Lolz....I really need to take some time off this next hols to brush up on what I have learnt...cuz now, I hardly have any time...most of the time is spent on revision and rushing homework.

Oh yeah...today we als had some sexuality education program. I was my usual blur self, as I always am when I don't take coffee. So they were talking abt dates and group dates. I was like hmm group dates...what on earth is that...This was how my train of thoughts went : concurrent dates? no that's under single dates....hmm maybe simultaneous dates? no that sounds even worse....ridiculous....then double/triple dates, maybe? In the end, what they meant was just going out with a group of friends...how stupid.....I wouldn't call that a date, it's just an outing. And everyone was like thinking sick...sometimes I wonder why we need this for.......I've had enough of all these sick jokes...though it's funny but now I'm getting an overdose of it...lolz....

2006-10-05T06:48:00.000-07:00

Today, I was on my way home, when I heard something...well rather interesting. Thre were 4 young female teachers seated in the same row of seats as I did, chattering rather loudly throught the journey. Lemme just give you an exerpt of their conversation:

A: Normal Acad students are so lazy....always dun hand up homewrok, dun pay attention in class, not inspired to work hard at all, so useless...
B: Ya...so lazy....*sigh*
A: Today go into class dun feel like teaching, so I wrote some examples on the board and ask them to do worksheet.
B: Aiyah....just give worksheet, do marking in class can already.
C: Ya lor, where got voice to teach...teach until no voice already...
D: Ya...so sickening, can't they just work hard for once...their exams coming already liao...

*End of exerpt*

Now, what does this tell you. I as a student for one, would NOT like to have such teachers. Thankfully, all the teachers in my school are not like that. Well, first, I hate it when teachers blame the students for their own shortcomings. The students are not inspired...who's the one who didn't inspire them? I'm not suprised that the students react this way....after all the teachers are just as bad right? You don't even teach, you just throw work to the students to do? What will they learn? Are you really there because you have the passion in teaching or you just want the money? A great teacher is one who inspires...are you one? Ask yourself. When I was listening to their conversation, I was too angry to say anything...had a good mind to tell them off. But I had homework to rush. Yes...there ARE teachers who DO inspire...so far I've been fortunate enough to meet a couple of them. Ok fine...maybe asking every teacher to be a great teacher is too much...but can't you even be a good teacher and at least TEACH??? And yet you still have the cheek to say all this...even if you want to be lazy, don't insult your students and put the blame on them...that's the very least you can do. Anyway, lemme just be happy that I don't get such horible teachers and I hope I won't have to meet any in the future.

Ilex.j

2006-10-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

Sigh....the usual routine...on my com, check my school email and portal of new updates. Cringed when I logged into espa....some portal thingy.....the moment I signed in, a popup appeared. It was a reminder from my teacher to hand up my eng reading journal....sigh....I know I haven't handed it up....it's due on Fri not now ok? Dun need to remind me anymore tt late work will b penalised.....

It's funny how you remember stuff.....I actually managed to forget tt I have a test 2morrow, until juz now. I was actually thinking of my teacher who I was MSNing...cuz her dress looked very nice. Lol. Saw her outside the staffroom while on my way to the locker area....so I was like thinking: staffroom...second floor...aaaah!!!! Chinese test 2morrow on the classroom opposite the staffroom on the second floor.....stupid right?

But it appears that our great teachers are also having their fair share of misery......*I'm so saddistic*...we are miserable studying for tests and exams......teachers are miserable setting exam papers for us. Come to think about it....I never even thought about that before...lol. It's the first time that it crossed my mind that the teachers are working hard for us students! Sigh...I'm so slow. Anyway, it's always good to share the misery right? Everybody has a job to do. Haha.

Gonna have to burn midnight oil tonight...I still remember a joke that my friend told me yesterday....cuz first we were talking about pollution problems...cuz he did that for his Geog project....and then we discussed about fuels and stuff, then suddenly he said to me..."gonna waste a lot of oil tonight". I was like "What?!". Then he replied "Burning midnight oil to finish my homework." Okay...no doubt that was funny....but now it's not so funny cuz from the looks of it, I'm gonna have to waste oil tonight as well. Sigh.

Without wax,
Ilex.j

2006-10-03T06:36:00.000-07:00

First, lemme start off this post with 2 words: Crypto ROCKS! After reading the book, Digital Fortress, by Dan Brown, I so wanna learn cryptography. But the info in the book isn't quite accurate sometimes, nevertheless, it is still a great read, and a great inspiration for the aspiring hacker (or rather, just another script kiddie). Well, the storyline is pretty cool, I like the character Susan so much, wish my math is half as good as hers...and David too....he rocks. Ever seen guy who proposes so many times? Yea...David did....I was like....how many times do u wanna get married to the same person? Lol....but he still rocks. It's kinda like a bit of a geeky lovestory combined with a thriller. One thing tha I realised is that cryptography is absolutely necessary in hacking, something that I had happily ignored for the past few months when I had started learnin hacking. I have so much more to learn....but right now, nothing matters more to me than staying in my school, graduation and my lifelong dream of being a hacker who does good. Why am I saying this? Cuz one guy told me straight in my face: Is there someone that says that I am a hacker, and says: I am going to use hacking to do good? My answer is: Yes there is, and I am going to prove to you that I will use hacking to do good. And not just that, I'm gonna be the best that I can be, and if I have the opportunity, well, win the annual DEFCON competition?.....but that's no doubt gonna be a really difficult task. Cuz my teacher told me, How does a teacher know if he/she is a good teacher? Look at your students and what they have become... I agree, and that is another good reason for me to work hard. In fact, I'm starting to understand what my teacher has been telling me all these while. Yes, I know I'm slow...I talked to her over lunch yesterday and it took me 25 hrs plus to understand what she meant. At first I thought I knew what it meant..but later it dawned on me that I didn't. So I thought throuh wha she said to me for quite sometime.... Sometimes, you need to experience it, before you realise what it is. But anyway, thanks a lot for your advice, I really appreciate it a lot.

2006-10-02T00:12:00.000-07:00

"Extrañar tú , volver a mí, porque hay no mundo verdadero tal cosa." Haha! It's supposed to be what's at the botton of the page, minus the frist word and the last 2 words, cuz sadly, I don't know how to say "I" and "rock", though I know how to say "you". Lol...and I don't even know if the phrasing is correct, cuz yea...my Spanish seriously sucks...I did this cuz I was bored.... Anyway, it means, "Miss you, retun to me, because there is no such thing as a real world...". I think at least, feel free to correct me!

2006-10-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

Haha...I'm back again! Have 4 hrs of free period today, used up 2 ald. Spend the first 1 hr taking picts for photography...cuz 2 idiots screwed up my last session! Worst still, it was before 1, so had to wear my tie, which is not a nice thing cuz the weather sucks. So tired...rested in my classroom, snacked and klkk. Lolz. Then had late lunch with my teacher....spent nearly 1hr talking! Asked her to hv lunch with me cuz I was so bored....she asked my history teacher to switch the lesson such that my class has 4 hrs free period straight! Now blogging in the library once again! We talked about keeping a diary....cuz people tend to forget their younger selves when they grow older....yea...I agree, if not why do adults misunderstand children and teens alothough they've been both of the above before? It's cuz they forget...but it's natural to forget, of course unless you're a savant! Yea....actually, when you look back at your life you can learn a lot of new stuff, and also laugh at how horrible you've been...but I'm still kinda hesitant to keep one cuz.............

Anyway, yea...onto the topic of guys.....a lot of girls talk about guys...but frankly, I dun see the point...I mean it's ok if they like it tho....haha. For me the only guys I usually think about are movie stars or singers! Lol...like Tom Cruise! Haha. He rocks! I wanna watch his movies after the exams are over....after watching Rainman, I realised that he's actually a very talented actor....he makes the character seem real.

Hahaz! Another class had Geog test today...everybody got killed! Cuz the teacher made the paper real hard! Thank goodness I'm not taking Geog this sem, or I would hv been dead too! She claims that students are too complacent, so this test is meant to make them less complacent and make them study harder! So moral of the story is: be a good student and you won't get such tests! And it's a teacher's priviledge to torture students! Strangely enough, they feel extremely happy after they have set a really hard test! I was like....Whoa so mean! But the teachers like it and there's no stopping so, juz be a good student, dun be complacent, and work hard! Lol, but sadly, I'm none of these! But I resolve to work harder for the upcoming exams...lol!

Emotions...hmm...it's a strage thing....it is ever changing....oh whatever. Juz have to find a way to cope with it! I really wanna learn Spanish so that I can blog in Spanish! Lolz.....

2006-10-01T19:45:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh!! IS class rocks! Haha...now's supposed to be class time but Mr Sukandar let us off for 20 mins to let the bioplastics we made harden....wootz! Now, blogging in the school library. The frozen bioplastics feel soo nice, but it stinks when it is being made, especially when it's burnt, burnt plastic does not smell good, in fact, it smells like rotten fish! Anyways, I'm gonna end here cuz I gotta go back to class soon! Yay! Seeya!

2006-10-01T00:06:00.000-07:00

Gaah!!! Stomachache!!! Sigh...ate too much spicy food today...my cousin gv everyone a treat and ordered lots of delicious spicy food. it tastes really good...my my stomach so dosent feel good. Later sure will ls. My teacher invited me out today...my I can't go...cuz my mom won't let me go. I really wanna go, tho it's a children's day celebration...haha...but I can't...waaaaaaaaa!!!! Yesterday, I was so upset cuz I dun wanna go to court by my mom wants me to, and I asked her if I could not go, but she didn't wanna ans me. Sigh...I'll try again in 48hrs time as my teacher suggested...lol. If not then I'll hide in sch. It's really great to hv someone to talk to when you're really pissed, or upset, or just depressed. Thanks so much fr just being there...it makes me feel a lot better. Seriously. I dunno how to tell you this...but I do hope that you're reading this post. It's good to have an adult there to advise you when you're confused and dunno wad to do. Taking to you makes me feel a lot better (unlike that idiotic counseller who always pisses me off).

On to something more cheery. My cousins and I were discussing about fashion, ahh...that reminds me of a joke...my friend tried to say fashion in japanese and it came out something like...faishioun....which another guy mistaken for f**k shoun....lol. Anyway, we were discussing on a makeover for my cousin, cuz her bro got his paycheck and wants to buy her some nice new clothes. Got her to try different combinations of clothes yesterday...wow, it was so cool...she looked quite nice actually. Gosh...wonder wad clothes they will come back with today after shopping...can't wait to see them!!!!

Oh yeah, another topic in my post...can't believe that I'm posting about three topics at the same time!!! Yea...about tagboards...in case you haven't noticed, I dun have a taggy. Lol. My teacher was so angry about people who flame her anonymously on her tagboard...I totally agree with her stand. There're many cowards out there who want to make fun of people or make remarks without holding responsibility. That seriously sucks. I do tag under a nickname...but at least people know who I am... Look here, if you have anything to say, sure, say it, but please do identify yourself and stop being a bloody coward!

2006-09-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

Haha...now myblogskin looks real screwed, but I like it! The first pict on the right is just there cuz he looks good. The second pict is there cus I like the angle it is taken from...makes him looks extra cool tho it looks kinda retro. From an amateur photographer's point of view, I think it's a pretty good shot. Ahh...inspiration for my screwed up photography assignment! gonna have to get it done on Monday.... Yeah...been obsessed with browsing through Tom Cruise fansites...lol...somehow, he looks hot...haha. In fact, the only other actor that I think looks just as nice, is Hayden Christensen. But anyway, it good to have some eye candy while I'm so stressed doin my work and with the stupid court cases....so anyway, Ciao...gotta continue with my work...

2006-09-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh!!! Tom Cruise looks so cool!!!! Ah...why am I saying this? Watched Rain Man in school yesterday...a movie starring Tom Cruise and Dustin Hoffman which was released in 1988. Usually, when I see Tom Cruise in the papers, it usually like oh ok, just another passing article. But I can't believe that that's Tom Cruise in Rain Man!!! Lol. Actually, his acting was better than I had expected it to be, an except for the 1980s dressing style, I must say he looks a lot better back then than he does now. But he does look surprisingly young for his age now though. the movie had a really nice storyline but the only thing that really annoyed me was that my teacher fast forwarded "certain" scenes...i.e. the scene where Raymond (Charlie's autistic bro) walks in on Charlie and his girlfriend having *ahem* and unwittingly causes them to break up. And the oter scene at Las Vegas, where Charlie is reunited with his girlfriend and she kisses his brother in the lift... But one thing, the kissing scene is already in the trailer, so why fast forward it? And Charlie's birth year in the movie is exactly the same as Tom's...wonder why? Haha...must buy 4D...lol. But watching Charlie in the movie, kinda reminds me of myself when I'm real pissed. I suppose I'll react the same way as he did...in fact I usually do...which makes the movie very real. I wanna buy the DVD!!! Can't wait to watch the movie again!

Then, everyone was given an assignment to do after watching the movie. One of the questions asked if I would rather have Charlie or Raymond as my bro. Charlie, cuz at the end of the show, he turns into this really nice guy who's no longer as money-minded as before (plus he's smart and hot - that wouldn't hurt either right?). Or Raymond, cuz he has fantastic memory and can count cards and make me rich....just like what happened to Charlie (he brought Raymond to Vegas to play blackjack), but I'm too young to go to the casino so too bad. I'd rather have Charlie for now. But I probbably can't write this on my assignment, so I'd better think of "better" answers...haha. Best of all, I can't believe that I'm now a fan of Tom Cruise!!!

2006-09-27T05:43:00.000-07:00

I just have two words to say: Life Sucks. Yea...just realised how screwed my life has been. First, everything comes crashin down, and 'm constantly stressed by so many tests and the people around me. The printer always breaks down when I most desperately need it (but on other days, it'salways working). I'm lacking sleep, and my sleep pattern has gone haywire...one moment I feel like I'm gonna drop dead, next moment I'm wide awake. I screwed up my CCA today...next time, I just wanna skip CCA and sign out the camera the next day for practice. And if the person in charge isn't quitting, I'm quitting. It's either you go or I go...I'm not gonna tolerate anymore of this shit. Frankly, I think I'd even join uniformed groups cuz at least that's not gonna piss me off. Lesson learnt: when you try to deal with too many things at the same time, something's bound to screw up. But what choicedo I have, I have that many things to deal with!!! Many of the teachers suck...some are buggers while others suddenly turn into magicians and vanish as and when they like. But thank god there's still that small portion of teachers who are still reasonable people. Studied like mad for my chem test...slept only 4 hrs!!! At least this time I think I didn't screw my test up, or at least I hope not. Still have to keep on studying...people say that buring yourself in studies ease the stress you have in your life, but for me it dosen't...it only makes things worse. And as if I'm not screwed up enough, tht idiot has to call me and bug me today...oh shit. And my lunch tommorrow is gonna begone becuz of another bugger...and I dun like that....becuz lunch time for me is time to eat or time to sleep, depending which of the 2 I need more urgently, and if any of these are taken away from me.....you go to hell. i'm already stressed as it is, and my good mood seldom last more than 24 hrs becuz there're so many sickening people around, and so little nice people in this world.

2006-09-26T04:53:00.000-07:00

Try This...it's *quite* true...well...to a certain extent...

Instuctions:
1st. Get PEN and PAPER
2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW
3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2 ,WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7 ,WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT

4. WRITE ANYONES NAME(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)next to 4, 5, & 6 .DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11

Ok yea...and these are my results...

1. 7
2. 17
3. Bryce
4. Lorna
5. Yichian
6. Ms Chen
7. Bryan
8. In The Air Tonight
9. Addicted To Love
10. Your Body Is A Wonderland
11. Daughters

KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found inSPACE 2[[17...so many?!!!]]

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE[[erm....we're only friends...JUST FRIENDS!!!! (Sigh....)]]

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7 [[Yea...how true]]

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4[[Lorna...yea!!!]]

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.[[Yichian? Yea..i suppose she does know me relatively well. since she's my classmate...but she's not the person that knows me best...(sry yc...)]]

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR LUCKY STAR[[Ms Chen...lol!!! You're a great teacher...but lucky star??? I dunno abt that]]

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3[[yea...this song is kinda intense...just like the person can be]]

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7[[Bryan is addicted to love? i don't know abt tt]]

9. THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND[[ am I that sick? i don't think abt tt all the time...but yea...it's a nice song to chill out to]]

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE[[how true...yea it kinda describes my life...]]

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER[[haha! of course!]]

2006-09-25T07:15:00.000-07:00

My friend got me to do this little fun thingy...and here's the results (extremely hilarious)!!!

Name 11 people you know.

1. Roy
2. Elza
3. Ada
4. Desmond
5. Belinda
6. Andre
7. Kimberly
8. Bryce
9. Ronald
10.Ms Chen
11.Mr Sukandar

Then answer the following questions:

How did u meet #10?She's my teacher...

What would u do if u nv met #2?Well, be sad that I have 1 less friend?

What would u do if #9 and #11 dated?Ooh...what a joke...but I'm sure that won't happen

Do you like #7?Yea...the most fun person I've ever met...lol

Would #5 and #6 make a gd couple?They? Well...height is a concern...

Describe #3.Friendly and jovial

Do you think #8 is attractive?AAAhhhh....normal?

Tell me somthing about #2.Makes people laugh...very fun person

Do you noe any of #4's family?Nope.

What's #5's favourite thing?Her pets...i think

What would u do if #3 confesses his/her love to
you?Ewww...please we're of the same gender

What language does #6 speak?Short language?

Who is #9 going out with?Not that I know of.

How old is #8 now?13

When is the last time u talk to #1?Last week

What's #2's favourite band/singer?Dunno

Would u ever date #7?No way...again, we're of the same gender!!!

Would u ever date #11?Him? OMG...how to? He's my teacher!!!

2006-09-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

Sigh....I'm back to my usual moody self again and I don't like it. Wish happiness could last forever, but it dosen't. Actually, my good mood from yesterday was already starting to wear off but was stll rather cheery until I head the bad news: Another court case! WTF! I had better not get involved in this or I'll end up fighting 2 cases at te same time whil trying to jugle hw and revision. OMG! I pinched myself and whacked my forehead but yea this is so not a dream!!! Oh whatever...still have to get on with life. But just one thing, it's not the number of cases that bothers me, in fact it's the complexity of the cases and the fact that I have to do so much talking. Lol.... It got transfered to the J Court i dunno why? What the hell has it to do with the J Court? Oh nevermind....I'll find out in due course

Sleeping does numb the pain but it won't go away.....

2006-09-21T06:28:00.000-07:00

Hey...for once I'm smiling again. Actually, I didn't realise how sulky I've been for the past few months...the last time I remember being this happy was 1 yr plus ago, when I was in cheer (during cheer prac). Wow....thanks so much for making me smile again...I feel a lot better now :)

2006-09-20T00:39:00.000-07:00

Sigh... yet another hearing. And then the judge didn't say much and called for another hearing at a later date. Whoa... so free...and guess wad? The next hearing is on Friday the Thirteenth! "WOW" wad a nice day. But the gd thing his tt I get to skip IP and Malay class!! Yay! I hate these 2 classes.... All I do is slack during IP and sleep during Malay.... I'd rather study my other subjects. Well, at least at court I get air-con and I get to study! Ok that's lame... But I seem unusually exhausted after each hearing and agitated as well. I feel like I want to either blow my top at someone or cry for the whole night. LOL! Anyways...bye.... Cuz I got homework to do! LOL...........

2006-09-14T00:09:00.000-07:00

Workload getting heavier and I'm suffering from the lack of sleep. I could just fall asleep standing up. Have to remind myself not to fall asleep during assembly and in class. Downing mocha in an attempt not to fall asleep in class.

And yea, I would also like to thank one guy: "C". Not gonna state his real name. I was on the verge of deciding to let go of my one and only hobby: hacking (due to the workload). Until, he messaged me about it and yea, I also learnt some new things especially harware hacks and that really changed my mind about quitting. He was telling me about programs for ipods and stuff, and I was thinking, hey I'm really under utilising my computer and my programs! Yea...but my programming SUCKS...but he was like "but at least you got the basics of hacking". And I thought about another adult said to me before, that I know more about hacking than most adults do. So i thought: am I just gonna let all this stuff go just like that? No way. I'll maybe cut down on my hacking activities but I'll still keep check and go through it once in a while. Yeah...I'm still a script kiddie experimenting with the many different elements of hacking, programming and computer security but one thing is for sure: I'll keep learning whenever I have time.

Oh and one more thing that I had never taken seriously until he mentioned it to me: the social effects of hacking. Many people, who are not very tech savvy always get the wrong impression that all hackers are bad cause of the way th media potrays it to be. And these people become paranoid about what hackers can do and many thin they imagine are usually extremely difficult tasks to do on a computer! I would like to quote this from "Conscience of a HACKER by Mentor" :

Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like. My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me for. I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop this individual, but you can't stop us all...

Find the full poem at : http://www.geocities.com/carail666/index.html

So we hackers are forced to shut the fuck up about our hobby and discuss it in secret with fellow hackers. Is this what the world is all about? Oh yes....little smart asses try to fool people into giving them their passwords and yes many will be. You can find many of this sort of stuff on Geocities. Curious people are trying to learn, there you are fooling them for your own amusement. Hacker fooling hacker. Man eats man. Is this what it should be? Yes, fooling people is an element of hacking called social engineering ifi'm not mistaken. But then it is misused. The world is cold and harsh.

2006-09-12T03:45:00.000-07:00

Gaaahhhh!!! Homework again....had only 4.5 hours of sleep last night. The stupid internet broke down, and I couldn't do my homework, so I rushed up wadever that could be done without the internet and slept at midnight. Woke up at 4.30 in the morning to continue doing my work, thankfully the internet was working. Or else I would be so dead. Had 2 cups of mocha in an attempt to keep myself awake during class. Now I'm still doing homework...sigh...when can I get some proper sleep? So tired now, staggering around whenever I need to get something, I feel so terrible and sad....I need SLEEP!!!

2006-09-10T06:59:00.000-07:00

Reverted to my first blogskin again. Sigh...just remembered something, so I though yeah, I want that blogskin back. Still got my project to do. Just realized that I missed out a huge part of the report!! Oh no! Then I'm now rushing up the report. Aaaaah! But at least I can find the info I need so not that bad.... Anyway, that's all...

2006-09-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

Sigh...so tired, spent hours setting up the router. Then after I got it finnaly done, someone crashed everythin again. Then I had to set it up yet again. Setting it up once is fine but asking me to do it twice is too much. Especially when it wasn't a technical problem. It's a problem with someone's itchy fingers. Look here, I not a paid technician ok?

Then on to today, just realised that I've got heaps of work left oh well, I guess I just gotta slog again today.

2006-09-06T23:07:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, had to attend the stupid court hearing. Took about 4 hrs. Then by the time I reached home, I had a terrible headache and I knocked out. Triend to get some sleep but instead I got a nightmare, oh whatever. Yeah, it was a stupid dream... dreamt of my cousin and this guy and some other stuff and that everything went so god damn wrong and then at the end, when I turned around, I got the shock of my life when I saw who the guy was. That was when I woke up. Sigh.

Today, I'm bored to death, doing homework again. Just realised that I had chem homework to do. AARGH! So much homework. Still have math, which I dunno how to do. Everyday, it's homework and study. Sigh.

2006-09-03T22:30:00.000-07:00

Changed my blogskin yet again. The guy in the picture is John Mayer. Saw a couple of his music videos on youtube and I thought it was quite nice. Yeah, then I saw a comment that said "John Mayer can make even sex sound boring". Haha. yea, no doubt his songs are a bit boring, the first time I heard him sing, a couple of years back I was like "Whoa, this guy is god damn boring. I can fall asleep listening to him sing". But now, after listening to the same song 2 years later, it actually sounds quite nice. Oh well, lets just say his lyrics are interesting, but not very direct, kinda leaves it up to your imagination. Haha, and to the guy who made that comment, well just find something more direct. Maybe like Eminem?

Oh yeah, one more thing, male chavunists (pigs) should really listen to Daughters by John Mayer.

2006-09-03T04:26:00.000-07:00

Feelin' pretty upset but wad to do? Why am I always at the receiving end of someone's bad temper? Aargh! On one hand, I feel like flaring up, on the other, I feel like crying. But then, no time for all that....still got project to do. Sigh....

Why is this world so cold? Why is everyone so self-centred? I feel like everything is crashing down....

2006-09-02T19:18:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.... spent the night chatting (via msn) with my teacher and my cousin (who's like abt 10 meteres or so away). Haha. Still sick though....but now I don't have a runny nose anymore! YAY! But my throat is still a bit sore... But I feel a lot better after MSNing yesterday... don't know why but it feels better talking to someone else other than the same few people I see everyday. ; ) LOL!

And yeah I was chatting abt the world changing.... yeah, life changes a lot. One moment it seems ok, then the next moment everything comes crashing down. Well, within like 2 weeks my life has changed a lot. Somehow, I still doubt myself at times, but there's no turning back. Just have to wait and see how things go. Probbably, that's why I picked this blogskin. Also, my mood been chaning drastically, one moment I could be so happy and the next I could be crying...

And yeah, even facts change.... cuz scientists decided to change em'. LOL... Well.... quoted frm someone "that's what keep universities in business". Haha. Well, everything must have a market if not it'll shut down eventually. But if not then why are humans are so smart? Or it is some fake world were're living in? Is everything actually what it is? Why are we here?

2006-09-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

Urgh! The internet nowadays is filled with all sorts of disgusting things. I was just searching for a picture of my favourite singer, Enrique, and I got all sorts of tasteless nonsense. Can't people just not put so many of such stuff on the internet? Worse still, I went to his fanpage, and well, the titles of the pictures were... erm... lets just say "suggestive" but in actual fact, the picture was just a face shot. I was like erm....well it's the first time I've seen such things....yeah....no kidding.

2006-09-02T05:32:00.000-07:00

I heard this song over the radio and I thought it was pretty nice. It's "Lips of an angel by Hinder" The lyrics are beautiful. Kinda cheered me up, especially when I'm sick and I still have to work... My runny nose is killing me, it's making my eyes tear and making me sneeze... Sigh... the result of lack of sleep. Gonna have a marathon sleep until hopefully tommorrow 12 pm!!! So distracted, can't focus on my work.... aargh!

Anyway, here's the lyrics for "Lips of an Angel"

Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweetComing from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late

2006-09-02T00:26:00.001-07:00

Aah...finally I've managed to get this blog done... Changed the template and deleted some entries... Yeah, all that sort of stuff. Took me so long to find a nice blogskin... Well not that I'm a big fan of Jake Gyllenhaal or something... but the layout's nice and the picture looks great. Somehow, it has this calm feel in the way he's staring into the distance. And as for the featured picture, the expression that it portays somehow makes him look calm yet fierce (and his blue eyes looks so cool!). Anyway, enough about the blog (and Jake Gyllenhaal).

I'm down with runny nose and sore throat and I still have a holiday project to do. My classmates didn't settle the grouping so I've decided to do it on my own. Anyway, I don't know how much longer it will take if I wait for them. Sigh...but it's a lot more work though, but what am I supposed to do?

2006-06-21T01:45:00.000-07:00

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