Monday, November 27, 2006

Read some other ppl's blogs today.... what drives us to work so hard and why? Looking around I see everyone so stressed working like mad.... I'm slowly turning into a workaholic too... if I dun study for a day, I'll feel odd.... I'm here because I have a goal, yet it seem that the harder I work on my schookwork I drift further away from my goal. AARGH!!! I'm doing stuff like geog, chem, phy, math but I want to study programming!!! Ok fine... I'll find my way.... Before, I used to be a computer geek, spending 70 to 80 percent of my time studying com stuff... but what changed me? I look around and I see ppl so driven to get good grades.... and I see ppl working so hard.... aah must be that Mr S, he appears to work so hard, or maybe he dosen't but it convices me and that's enough, but if he's juz pretending to, gd for u dude, it works. Everytime he nags, I hand up my lab report with all the questions completed, however usually one day late. But at least I do my paper properly..... And now, I can't believe I'm working my *** off when there's no test, no exams, no homework! It's the hols now! Hello? AARGH!!! Then I see people aiming to go to Stanford or whatever, winning the Nobel prize? XD And me? To win DEFCON the largest 'underground' hacking compeition? Haha... Now you see the difference.... Anyway, I gotta get back to work, I think I'll work for 70% of the time and spend the rest either learning and practising programming or playing my miserable keyboard which is aeons older then me.... I want the adapter BACK! I want to play the NEWER keyboard not this tiny old keyboard get it? I can play properly on this keyboard and with it's limited functions it sounds funny when I play it, so PLEASE it's been weeks ald.....
Jenhi || 7:29 AM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

I can't believe I'm saying this well, but I am..... I actually thought that Rain was cute...XD But Channing Tatum is cuter...XD Well... I used to find Rain's MVs irritating, but after looking properly, he CAN dance... ok fine... but still most of them are irritating when he is trying to work his sex appeal.... but the one, I DO is much better and more pleasant too but somehow, from the side he reminds me of my tutor.....XD but his songs are still ok to listen to while I'm working...

Step Up rocks!!! Channing Tatum is so funny.... and he can dance very well... the acting is great, plus Mario's in the cast and he actually performs in the movie... so there...go watch it, you won't regret...

Prisonbreak is nice too... but the DVD set cost a bomb... abt 100 bucks.... but Wentworth Miller's character is really cool... and smart... so jealous.... my friend watched the whole thing on DVD ald... but I can't borrow cuz it's with his dad who's overseas... AARGH!!!
Jenhi || 8:21 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

AAhhhh!!! My CAP sux... so ridiculous.... improved by a mere 0.01 pts... I felt like banging my head.... not juz my CAP is tt bad... but it is juz too ridiculous but anyways... i also want a higher CAP, juz like anyone else.... XD.... X, when he saw my CAP was like: WHAT?! He staed at it in disbelief.... I know... it sux... But after he had recovered frm his initial shock.... he was back to his normal self... tried to make me feel better by asking me to look at the score objectively..... yea, marks are not everything and my CAP is ok considering the circumstances.... but looking back, at one point, i was on the brink of failing until 'someone' saved me.... XD I told X tt i wanted to work harder.... he was a bit surprised, considering my character.... LAZY... but I really regret wad happened... working like mad until I fell ill juz to pass my exams... I also want to make his effort, and everybody's effort worth it... I dun want to dissapoint them... and put unnecessary pressure on myself and X... since he's been so patient and made me realise my mistake and never giving up although it looked impossible....THX ;)
Jenhi || 7:07 AM

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Haha....exams r over and I'm like trying to do so many things at the same time. Learning to play How To Save A Life by The Fray on the keyboard, and brushing up on my computer skills and playing stupid.....not enough time. XD Refreshing myself on html and doing javascript, it's the first time I'm mixing these 2 together. So the first thing to do? Get a complex blogskin with javascript, and take it on - which means tearing it down and rebuilding it to my own set specifications. Sadly, it includes graphical and asthetical elements, which is a bit troublesome but it's all part of learning. The last time i did that was before exams when my teacher was moaning over how difficult it was to edit her blogskin and just to prove her wrong, I decided to try and do it to her specs and it was done in under half an hr, easy but now with javascript and navigations I'm gonna take much longer but I'll try. Then after that when I think I'm good enough, build up my own blogskin from scratch, and to add to the difficulty, make it as complex as possible.

I also wanted to try composing songs....but my main inspirations are backstreet boys and Jonathan Clay, and Jonathan Clay's music is heavily inspired buy John Mayer, so how will it turn out? I wonder, but the music part I'm still trying to figure out so it'll take some time. Plus I don't have a guitar to work with and the large keyboard is down cuz someone took away the adapter and didn't return it as of yet. So I'm left with my battery operated 4th hand keyboard that is molder than myself to practice and compose songs on, not a very nice thing cuz it actually ok but it dosen't have keys that are sensitive to how hard you hit em so it will sound a bit weird when played. Sigh... so I'll work on the lyrics first and alter them along the way.
Jenhi || 8:14 PM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Been thinking of a certain person these few days.... Somehow, when you don't see someone as 
often, that someone keeps popping up in your head be it when your catching a nap, playing the
keyboard, crapping... anytime... I'm also starting to miss some of my lessons that I don't really
enjoy.... sigh..... what to do? Maybe I'll write something on my other blogs juz to get this feeling off.
I miss a lot of stuff and most of all, I miss you..... sigh...... 
Jenhi || 12:14 AM

Haven't blogged for a long time..... been too busy studying then after that too busy playing and
pusuing my other interests. I have been thinking about something for a rather long time... and
more recently I saw a blog post about it written by someone I know... it was about Jesus' suffering as
as depicted in the bible and the movie The Passion of Christ.... I was thinking how did these all
come about.... ancient writings of religion dates back to a time in which modern man hardly know
about. How did these writings came to be beliefs of today? Yes.... I do believe that there are other beings, possibly superior to man around.... we can't be the only ones around right? But then again,
why is it that so little is know and proof is so difficult? The unknown is so vast and what we know
is just a very small portion of it..... like what's death, yea, clinically dead as some people would say,
but what does it mean? What is it for? Questions left unanswered everyday as more and more
questions arise.....

Jenhi || 12:04 AM