Monday, October 30, 2006

Oh screw that shit.... u say u r stressed..... aren't I too? U screwed me up so badly. Anayway, serves u rite tt u r stressed..... at least u get ur fair share of it..... haha I'm so mean but tt's true rite? Meanwhile, while u r crying at the workplace, I'm not much better at home. Crying not cuz I'm upset but cuz my head hurt so darn bad that I can't walk, or do nothing..... luckily someone helped me to the bed. But I had to wait till it was all clear before I could safely drift off to sleep. Lying there semi-conscious and disoriented, I still had to try to stay awake. At one point I even forgot where I was.... I was like oh where the hell am I? Then I realised that i was in the room..... stupid rite? Then koncked out as soon it was clear. Woke up and guess what? Shit, i can't open my right eye.....look around the room with only one eye open.....then tried to move my right hand.... cannot move as well...... my right leg was a bit stiff but i could still move it with some effort. Screwed shit, y is it that my left side is totally ok but my right isn't? Nvm.... then the headache cam back.....yea...all this was caused by a stress headache. It was like splitting my skull down the middle. I knocked out again....woke up much better.....now my right arm can move.....used my hand to force my eye open...then it snapped shut...darn....forced it open again...ok...it stayed there half open....at least i can see now.... let's try getting up to watch tv....pushed myself up.....my head started throbbing.....sat there and rested while watching tv..... when i felt better...i tried to get to the kitchen....and cut strawberries.....hehe....luckily i didn't cut my own hand.....after eating i felt a lot better.....then my cousin offered me lots of nice chocolates!!!! Ate chocolates and watched prison break... it rocks.... a lot better for someone who couldn't move or do anything a few hrs ago..... waited till the headache had totally faded.... which was at night before i started work till midnight....

I know i do owe u an explanation for wad happened...if u want it.... i too want your explanation...but not now..... i don't want it to affect my work..... anyway, i'd better save my own ass first since u did the same to me.......
Jenhi || 4:19 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Haven;t blogged for a few days, too busy with school and a lot of other crappy stuff... Ok so recap of today and yesterday first....

Yesterday: Had to wear formal but I lost my tie... Mr Ho didn't say anything... Ms Chen said to find my tie ASAP or she would have to punish me..... I was like "No problem" She just stared at me. After all, it's my own horrible fault that I lost my tie right? And besides I'm gonna get punished sooner or later anyway, and the punishment isn't tt bad either, just wear tie the next day only wad..... In my head I was thinking like "Go ahead and punish me....I won't get angry with you!" But she didn't. First time in my life have I seen such things happen. But as expected, Mr Skd ordered me to wear my tie the following day....knew it....the punishment was bound to come sooner or later.....Then IS test.... Practical test... quite fun.... but I can't stand that Mr Skd... he's like so friggin smart.... juz read on my classmate's blog that all he did was loop the leaf in the hole of the weight and lifted up the 1kg weight just using 1 leaf!!! OMG! That's pro. No wonder he say no need string, but then liddat how to have results? The heaviest weight is 1 kg.... dun tell me tie a few 1kg weights together? Hahaz... Then he found out that one of my classmates was frm Ros*** School, the same pri sch that I was frm. He then repeated the name of the school thoughout the rest of the lesson, each time I walked past him, I was bound to hear it. Then he said Ros*** Primary School..... I was like, there's no Primary in the name. He was like "Ok" and continued repeating the name without the Primary in it. Odd guy. And the iron of the whole thing was that at the end of the lesson, there were 3 students left on the lab and all of us were from the same school..... strange..... It's starting to get a little bit creepy....Then I was feeling a bit bored so I decided to stay in the lab to chat.... Found out something suprising..... someone's last job at a certain institute is still vacant after 2 yrs...... hmm.... so long?

Today: Horrible, rushed roun trying to get a tie, thank god one of my friends had a tie with her, or i'll be dead... Had to wear tie till 1pm..... Ms Chen saw me and was like "Oh....being punished? Who asked u to wear tie today?" I was like dotts.... who else "Mr Skd" I replied. "Good" she said. What on earth is so good abt it? I know it's my fault, bu good simply sound weird....very weird.... And life is such that you ca bump into the same person so many times.... Then break, I saw her today.... she's so strange today, she didn't scold me for not pulling my tie all the way up to the collar, but my classmate got scolded for not wearing his badge and had to buy another one!!! Hahaz....I'm so mean....Then we talked abt the mosquito ring.... apparently, adults can't really hear it... but I can.... weird..... My teache rcould hear it slightly, but at a distance she can't but I can, and it's so ear piercing. She claims tt Mr Skd can't hear it too, he's a few months younger than her, and besides men usually age slower, so what's the reason for him not being able to hear it? Weird... must do more research on this.........
Jenhi || 1:53 AM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Today was a rather weird day.... First, I met my teacher first thing in the morning, just as I was about to pass up work early for once. Then assembly, the same teacher tried acting cute...*erm* no comments...but it was kinda funny. When I was on my way home, I saw 5 teachers - 4 teachers from my school and on teacher who used to teach in my school, but now teaches at the school across the road. XD. I was kinda bored, so I decided to try to figure out who the 5 teachers were...cuz they were quite far away. So first I was my English teacher....then I saw my Chem teacher....and another teacher beside her...looks like Mr Wee I think.....XD. Then I saw my physics teacher. 4 teachers ald...so I was wondering who was the last one....I didn't realise who it was until I saw how he walked.......So it's my IS teacher. thre were exactly 5 of them...most probbably they're gonna get into a car....yea ad ture enough they did. What surprised me most was the driver...Ms Sim....XD....didn't noe she had a car (and a nice one at that). Lolz......Enough of all this stuff abt teachers....anyway...I juz wanted to crap...XD
Jenhi || 11:00 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

Oh yeah! Made someone's blog hit go up to 200!! Wootz! Hahaz....ok tt's lame. Free period now...I'm so bored...feel like playing some pranks again....but always no kick....must think of something better. I seriously nedd regular comic relief, or I'll be agitated, especially after yesterday. I know it's a bit mean to play pranks...make ppl happy fo nothing then tell them what it really is...hahaz...but it's kinda fun....and I'm sure it pretty harmless rite? I'm not doin anything nasty...

And I've noticed that I'm not the only one in a bad mood...Yeah! I like tt....sigh....I'm so saddistic...lolz.

Shayne Ward ROCKS!!! He's a great singer...very versatile.....and I like the way he says the words of the songs...lolz....The X factor is a really nice show...but it's not shown in this country...sigh...but there's always Youtube! The concept is better than Idol, as in each contestant will be assigned to one of the judges and the judge will be their mentor...in this way, the contestants will be properly nurtured.....which is much better than Idol....Idol sux. And the judges on X factor are fun, and Simon Cowell dosen't seems so mean.....And the comments are funny! Lolx.....
Jenhi || 10:02 PM

Today was really KNS! First got nagged to pull up my tie for the upteenth time...it's strangling ok? But tt isn't tt bad. Then the "eggy IS lesson". Mr "S" nagged half the lesson time. Just sitting there talking non-stop. Yea...it makes sense....I know we're a bunch of overpriveledged kiddos...but u juz need to give some time...kids will grow up someday. Take a good look at them...they're not tt bad. Be a lil' more patient. Ok? Lolz....

Then the afternoon was even worse.....had to go to the Horrible Stinking Association....and tt isiot sucks. The needle gun was stupid......

Sigh...I'm so agitated....but I feel a lot better after pranking someone. Screwed up the blog counter.......haha......but then tt person logged off so soon...no kick! Have to wait till 2morrow!
Jenhi || 5:43 AM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Oh Yeah! Managed to rip videos from Youtube. So far ripped 2 vids of Shayne Ward performing on the show, X Factor. Ok, here's the steps for you to be able to do it, it's a little bit of a hassle, but it's definitely worth it.

1. Get the latest version of Mozilla Firefox.

2. Go to the Firefox extentions page and search for an extention called "download helper", click on it and install it.

3. Once you have installed download helper, go to www.softpedia.com and search for FLV player. Install FLV player from the US link.

4. Once that is done, go to www.youtube.com and pick a video of your choice. Right click on a blank area in the page (ie. no vids, no links etc).

5. When you right click, you will see a dropdown list and go to the option that says "download helper".

6. Click on the one that says "youtube....." There will also be a youtube icon.

7. Save the vid.

8. One that is done, go to "C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\dwhelper\youtube" to access the videos.

9. Done!!!! Just sit back, relax and enjoy the videos!

Without wax,
Ilex.j
Jenhi || 11:35 PM

Today, I was looking through my com for junk to clear when I stumbled upon some pictures. Looking at them....many was a total disaster....the way the picts was taken was terrible. Luckily, none of then were taken by me...: ) Hahaz...sorry to the person who took these picts...but they really don't look nice. For example, a guy's hand in one of the picts looked larger than his head...and in another, a gal's face looked off color....and the angle was weird. Ok anyway....but frankly, those people in the pictures look A LOT BETTER in person...lolz. Hahaz...lesson learnt....I must improve on my photography skills.....after all....I'm in the photography club....so I can't take horrible picts....or else I would be dead. Lolz.....
Jenhi || 3:07 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Sighz....read Roy's poem on his blog, it's a really nice poem....but I don't think I'll ever wanna read such poems ever again. There's always a trigger every few days that get me really upset.....why?

Anyway, today was the last day of IP...YAY! I hate IP...did it beofre ald...actually I wanted to go for something more adventurous like amking a cooling system or some interesting hardware hacks.....go to www.hackaday.com ...those stuff are really cool. But my group members opted for something simple, which bored me to death. The prototype is like so easy to make...can make it in under a day. the IP fair was moderately fun...most of the time was spent klkk or reading some intro notes on cryptography and cryptanlysis....did I spell it right? Well, it's something like that....the latter interests me more....some how stuff and hacking seems to interest me more than programming or working out algorithms....anyway, my math sucks so algorithms at this point is definitely out of question. Sigh....realised how sucky my English was when I read the notes.....I dun understand the vocab used! OMG! Need to do more research...cuz if u wanna break any code, u must first know how it was designed wad....the best person to stop a hacker is in fact another hacker...cuz they think along the same lines... Lolz....I really need to take some time off this next hols to brush up on what I have learnt...cuz now, I hardly have any time...most of the time is spent on revision and rushing homework.

Oh yeah...today we als had some sexuality education program. I was my usual blur self, as I always am when I don't take coffee. So they were talking abt dates and group dates. I was like hmm group dates...what on earth is that...This was how my train of thoughts went : concurrent dates? no that's under single dates....hmm maybe simultaneous dates? no that sounds even worse....ridiculous....then double/triple dates, maybe? In the end, what they meant was just going out with a group of friends...how stupid.....I wouldn't call that a date, it's just an outing. And everyone was like thinking sick...sometimes I wonder why we need this for.......I've had enough of all these sick jokes...though it's funny but now I'm getting an overdose of it...lolz....
Jenhi || 11:39 PM

Today, I was on my way home, when I heard something...well rather interesting. Thre were 4 young female teachers seated in the same row of seats as I did, chattering rather loudly throught the journey. Lemme just give you an exerpt of their conversation:

A: Normal Acad students are so lazy....always dun hand up homewrok, dun pay attention in class, not inspired to work hard at all, so useless...
B: Ya...so lazy....*sigh*
A: Today go into class dun feel like teaching, so I wrote some examples on the board and ask them to do worksheet.
B: Aiyah....just give worksheet, do marking in class can already.
C: Ya lor, where got voice to teach...teach until no voice already...
D: Ya...so sickening, can't they just work hard for once...their exams coming already liao...

*End of exerpt*

Now, what does this tell you. I as a student for one, would NOT like to have such teachers. Thankfully, all the teachers in my school are not like that. Well, first, I hate it when teachers blame the students for their own shortcomings. The students are not inspired...who's the one who didn't inspire them? I'm not suprised that the students react this way....after all the teachers are just as bad right? You don't even teach, you just throw work to the students to do? What will they learn? Are you really there because you have the passion in teaching or you just want the money? A great teacher is one who inspires...are you one? Ask yourself. When I was listening to their conversation, I was too angry to say anything...had a good mind to tell them off. But I had homework to rush. Yes...there ARE teachers who DO inspire...so far I've been fortunate enough to meet a couple of them. Ok fine...maybe asking every teacher to be a great teacher is too much...but can't you even be a good teacher and at least TEACH??? And yet you still have the cheek to say all this...even if you want to be lazy, don't insult your students and put the blame on them...that's the very least you can do. Anyway, lemme just be happy that I don't get such horible teachers and I hope I won't have to meet any in the future.

Ilex.j
Jenhi || 6:48 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Sigh....the usual routine...on my com, check my school email and portal of new updates. Cringed when I logged into espa....some portal thingy.....the moment I signed in, a popup appeared. It was a reminder from my teacher to hand up my eng reading journal....sigh....I know I haven't handed it up....it's due on Fri not now ok? Dun need to remind me anymore tt late work will b penalised.....

It's funny how you remember stuff.....I actually managed to forget tt I have a test 2morrow, until juz now. I was actually thinking of my teacher who I was MSNing...cuz her dress looked very nice. Lol. Saw her outside the staffroom while on my way to the locker area....so I was like thinking: staffroom...second floor...aaaah!!!! Chinese test 2morrow on the classroom opposite the staffroom on the second floor.....stupid right?

But it appears that our great teachers are also having their fair share of misery......*I'm so saddistic*...we are miserable studying for tests and exams......teachers are miserable setting exam papers for us. Come to think about it....I never even thought about that before...lol. It's the first time that it crossed my mind that the teachers are working hard for us students! Sigh...I'm so slow. Anyway, it's always good to share the misery right? Everybody has a job to do. Haha.

Gonna have to burn midnight oil tonight...I still remember a joke that my friend told me yesterday....cuz first we were talking about pollution problems...cuz he did that for his Geog project....and then we discussed about fuels and stuff, then suddenly he said to me..."gonna waste a lot of oil tonight". I was like "What?!". Then he replied "Burning midnight oil to finish my homework." Okay...no doubt that was funny....but now it's not so funny cuz from the looks of it, I'm gonna have to waste oil tonight as well. Sigh.

Without wax,
Ilex.j
Jenhi || 1:54 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

First, lemme start off this post with 2 words: Crypto ROCKS! After reading the book, Digital Fortress, by Dan Brown, I so wanna learn cryptography. But the info in the book isn't quite accurate sometimes, nevertheless, it is still a great read, and a great inspiration for the aspiring hacker (or rather, just another script kiddie). Well, the storyline is pretty cool, I like the character Susan so much, wish my math is half as good as hers...and David too....he rocks. Ever seen guy who proposes so many times? Yea...David did....I was like....how many times do u wanna get married to the same person? Lol....but he still rocks. It's kinda like a bit of a geeky lovestory combined with a thriller. One thing tha I realised is that cryptography is absolutely necessary in hacking, something that I had happily ignored for the past few months when I had started learnin hacking. I have so much more to learn....but right now, nothing matters more to me than staying in my school, graduation and my lifelong dream of being a hacker who does good. Why am I saying this? Cuz one guy told me straight in my face: Is there someone that says that I am a hacker, and says: I am going to use hacking to do good? My answer is: Yes there is, and I am going to prove to you that I will use hacking to do good. And not just that, I'm gonna be the best that I can be, and if I have the opportunity, well, win the annual DEFCON competition?.....but that's no doubt gonna be a really difficult task. Cuz my teacher told me, How does a teacher know if he/she is a good teacher? Look at your students and what they have become... I agree, and that is another good reason for me to work hard. In fact, I'm starting to understand what my teacher has been telling me all these while. Yes, I know I'm slow...I talked to her over lunch yesterday and it took me 25 hrs plus to understand what she meant. At first I thought I knew what it meant..but later it dawned on me that I didn't. So I thought throuh wha she said to me for quite sometime.... Sometimes, you need to experience it, before you realise what it is. But anyway, thanks a lot for your advice, I really appreciate it a lot.
Jenhi || 6:36 AM

Monday, October 02, 2006

"Extrañar tú , volver a mí, porque hay no mundo verdadero tal cosa." Haha! It's supposed to be what's at the botton of the page, minus the frist word and the last 2 words, cuz sadly, I don't know how to say "I" and "rock", though I know how to say "you". Lol...and I don't even know if the phrasing is correct, cuz yea...my Spanish seriously sucks...I did this cuz I was bored.... Anyway, it means, "Miss you, retun to me, because there is no such thing as a real world...". I think at least, feel free to correct me!
Jenhi || 12:12 AM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Haha...I'm back again! Have 4 hrs of free period today, used up 2 ald. Spend the first 1 hr taking picts for photography...cuz 2 idiots screwed up my last session! Worst still, it was before 1, so had to wear my tie, which is not a nice thing cuz the weather sucks. So tired...rested in my classroom, snacked and klkk. Lolz. Then had late lunch with my teacher....spent nearly 1hr talking! Asked her to hv lunch with me cuz I was so bored....she asked my history teacher to switch the lesson such that my class has 4 hrs free period straight! Now blogging in the library once again! We talked about keeping a diary....cuz people tend to forget their younger selves when they grow older....yea...I agree, if not why do adults misunderstand children and teens alothough they've been both of the above before? It's cuz they forget...but it's natural to forget, of course unless you're a savant! Yea....actually, when you look back at your life you can learn a lot of new stuff, and also laugh at how horrible you've been...but I'm still kinda hesitant to keep one cuz.............

Anyway, yea...onto the topic of guys.....a lot of girls talk about guys...but frankly, I dun see the point...I mean it's ok if they like it tho....haha. For me the only guys I usually think about are movie stars or singers! Lol...like Tom Cruise! Haha. He rocks! I wanna watch his movies after the exams are over....after watching Rainman, I realised that he's actually a very talented actor....he makes the character seem real.

Hahaz! Another class had Geog test today...everybody got killed! Cuz the teacher made the paper real hard! Thank goodness I'm not taking Geog this sem, or I would hv been dead too! She claims that students are too complacent, so this test is meant to make them less complacent and make them study harder! So moral of the story is: be a good student and you won't get such tests! And it's a teacher's priviledge to torture students! Strangely enough, they feel extremely happy after they have set a really hard test! I was like....Whoa so mean! But the teachers like it and there's no stopping so, juz be a good student, dun be complacent, and work hard! Lol, but sadly, I'm none of these! But I resolve to work harder for the upcoming exams...lol!

Emotions...hmm...it's a strage thing....it is ever changing....oh whatever. Juz have to find a way to cope with it! I really wanna learn Spanish so that I can blog in Spanish! Lolz.....
Jenhi || 11:22 PM

Oh my gosh!! IS class rocks! Haha...now's supposed to be class time but Mr Sukandar let us off for 20 mins to let the bioplastics we made harden....wootz! Now, blogging in the school library. The frozen bioplastics feel soo nice, but it stinks when it is being made, especially when it's burnt, burnt plastic does not smell good, in fact, it smells like rotten fish! Anyways, I'm gonna end here cuz I gotta go back to class soon! Yay! Seeya!
Jenhi || 7:45 PM

Gaah!!! Stomachache!!! Sigh...ate too much spicy food today...my cousin gv everyone a treat and ordered lots of delicious spicy food. it tastes really good...my my stomach so dosent feel good. Later sure will ls. My teacher invited me out today...my I can't go...cuz my mom won't let me go. I really wanna go, tho it's a children's day celebration...haha...but I can't...waaaaaaaaa!!!! Yesterday, I was so upset cuz I dun wanna go to court by my mom wants me to, and I asked her if I could not go, but she didn't wanna ans me. Sigh...I'll try again in 48hrs time as my teacher suggested...lol. If not then I'll hide in sch. It's really great to hv someone to talk to when you're really pissed, or upset, or just depressed. Thanks so much fr just being there...it makes me feel a lot better. Seriously. I dunno how to tell you this...but I do hope that you're reading this post. It's good to have an adult there to advise you when you're confused and dunno wad to do. Taking to you makes me feel a lot better (unlike that idiotic counseller who always pisses me off).

On to something more cheery. My cousins and I were discussing about fashion, ahh...that reminds me of a joke...my friend tried to say fashion in japanese and it came out something like...faishioun....which another guy mistaken for f**k shoun....lol. Anyway, we were discussing on a makeover for my cousin, cuz her bro got his paycheck and wants to buy her some nice new clothes. Got her to try different combinations of clothes yesterday...wow, it was so cool...she looked quite nice actually. Gosh...wonder wad clothes they will come back with today after shopping...can't wait to see them!!!!

Oh yeah, another topic in my post...can't believe that I'm posting about three topics at the same time!!! Yea...about tagboards...in case you haven't noticed, I dun have a taggy. Lol. My teacher was so angry about people who flame her anonymously on her tagboard...I totally agree with her stand. There're many cowards out there who want to make fun of people or make remarks without holding responsibility. That seriously sucks. I do tag under a nickname...but at least people know who I am... Look here, if you have anything to say, sure, say it, but please do identify yourself and stop being a bloody coward!
Jenhi || 12:06 AM